Saturday, November 14, 2009 '
11:43 AM Y
Its the time of the year once more.
Studying blues, welcome back into my life.
Come to think of it, this year must be a significant year in the 'academic years' of my life.
The IB exams were over not too long ago (though it feels like years ago) and now its time for the first set of exams in my university life.
Not sure where my motivation is though that is not one of my pressing concerns now.
The more important task is to find my self-discipline again.
I had some form of it at the beginning of this year but it has slipped through my fingers.
Time to locate it and fast.
Two more weeks to go.
It has striked me how hard some people are studying and in comparison, i am such a lazy bum.
Stupid stupid stupid.
Those scholars are going to be the death of me.
Nevertheless, im not going down without a fight.
Monday, October 5, 2009 '
2:29 PM YHAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
And so i start the 19th year of my life.
My 18th year on Earth has been a great one.
I made loads of new friends and have had my proudest moment in my life so far.
I can brag about gaining lots of new experiences and successfully completing high school.
Sure hope this year will be as eventful and fruitful as the previous year.
Thanks everyone for all the birthday wishes =)
Love you all loads.
Saturday, September 5, 2009 '
7:28 PM YEw.
I cannot believe how lost im feeling right now.
I want to do my tutorials so so badly, but i have a huge problem.
I AM NOT ABLE TO DO THE EVEN THE FIRST QUESTION OF ANY OF MY TUTORIALS!
Or maybe its just me.
Talk about putting people off.
The super smart kids in my tutorial group are scaring me.
They can do like EVERY SINGLE question and my page is filled with blanks.
Talk about being demoralised.
I want to go out so badly but then, i have to bear in mind the consequences.
Not having enough time to complete my work.
Talk about having a non-existant life.
To sum up,
Math tutorial seems easy, techniques that i should be able to employ, but i cannot solve the questions.
MLE tutorial is pure madness. Someone tell me why i even need to learn this?
MATLAB assignment is so confusing, its indescribable. Seems to be written in a totally different language.
Japanese Studies is fun. But how are we going to decide on our essay title??
Singapore-India lecture is interesting. But the readings are enough to bore anyone.
Math sucks.
MLE sucks.
MATLAB sucks.
JAPANESE STUDIES PROJECT sucks.
SINGAPORE-INDIA readings sucks.
Life is wonderful.
I love my life.
xxx meishan
Saturday, August 29, 2009 '
5:58 PM YRight.
So we didnt manage to meet up.
Now i know why i dont like to plan outings.
Because i will definitely get pissed off if all my planning came to naught at the end.
Poor ah boy.
Hope he doesnt feel bad right now.
He told me he was fine so i shall take his word for it =)
Anyway, math tutorials are a killer.
Like what is L'Hopital's rule?
Its crazy.
I dont even understand it.
Not to mention ,the new tutorials and readings for the next week.
All left untouched at the moment.
WHO TOLD ME THAT IB WAS THE HARDEST THING EVER?!
I TOTALLY BEG TO DIFFER.
THIS IS SO MUCH WORSE.
Right, as what my math lecturer would say.
STAY COOL AND CALM.
Everything will work out eventually.
I just hope that it wont be too late by then.
xxx meishan
Saturday, August 22, 2009 '
3:52 PM YIts the end of the second week of school.
Tutorials are due to start next week.
I am officially stressed up already.
So many tutorials to do and I do not have to ability to even complete ONE of them.
So tell me wise one,
HOW AM I GOING TO GET THROUGH THE NEXT 4 YEARS IN UNI??
Time to turn those tutorials into ashes and let them be gone with the wind.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009 '
9:55 PM YRight.
I have been too lazy to update my blog and China actually banned blog after the end of my IB exams so i didnt get to update.
Pictures of my after IB life has been posted in FB already so i doubt i will put up any here.
Back in Singapore for about 3 weeks already.
Life back here is alright i suppose.
But i do miss Shanghai and the spitting-champions there.
Not to mention i miss Dulwich as well.
My IB results were not awesomely wonderful but...
it was good enough to make me shed tears of happiness when i first received news of it (from mrs brinn through email).
It was good enough to make my parents and family members proud of me.
It was good enough to bring in choruses of CONGRATULATIONS from friends and teachers.
It was good enough to grant me acceptances from universities.
It was good enough to give me entrance to the course that i deemed 'unattainable' at the start of my high school life.
And for all these reasons, i am happy enough.
There is no need to obtain a perfect score to bring a sense of satisfaction.
The fact that my grades more or less already reflect all the hard work (sweat, tears, sleepless nights etc.) that i put in during this period of my life is a good reason enough to celebrate.
But now, the celebrations are over.
The relaxing period of time has ended.
My brains has had sufficient time to tour the world and return.
I guess i can say that i have had a good rest already.
All ready to start a new period in my life?
Not exactly but then i guess there isnt a choice is there?
Rather start school now than wait another year to do so.. at least my brain is still in working order now.
First week of school this week.
The timetable planning is a true headache but good fun in a way as well.
First lecture yesterday wasnt too bad.
More to come tomorrow and on friday.
Time to brace myself up for the new challenges put in my way.
Note to self: Do not be intimidated by those smart people sitting around me in the lecture theater.. i am, in every way, as good as them to be even sitting in there.
Watch out people, a future first-class chemical engineer is on about to be born =)
" Everything starts out difficult before becoming easy."
Sunday, May 10, 2009 '
5:15 PM Y
Hectic schedules
Crazy long papers (heck! i have 5hrs 15mins worth of exams on tuesday!)
Rushing home to continue studying for the next day's paper
I suddenly remember the times back in Hai Sing when we were very very generous with our blessings and have this hourly-routine where we say / shout
'THANKYOU TEACHER, GOD BLESS YOU!'
at the end of every lesson before the teacher leaves the classroom.
Now what i want to say is,
'THANKYOU TEACHERS, GOD BLESS ME!'
because god (... and everyone else) knows, i need to be blessed more than you at this moment.
